Unraveling

I’m beginning my “unraveling” (*Susanna C.) journey today. It is an attempt to (learn) to see my self in a different way. Not an effort to “change” myself, rather to discover the real me.  (And I do mean REAL)!

I (sadly) spend a lot of time thinking about “what” I should be, and “how” I should act, instead of focusing on (and accepting?) who I really am; what I really react to; what I sincerely think about a person or situation, instead of what I think I “should” be thinking. It’s a little complicated when I try to analyze it all, but I’ve recently discovered that if I can just be honest and open then maybe it really isn’t that difficult at all? We’ll see.

I love photography. Most of you already know that! I suppose part of the reason I love it so much, is because I can do one of two things (depending on my “mood”). 1. I can take a snapshot of something completely and amazingly beautiful and share it with the world. I can make life look as though it is a never-ending “walk in the park”. That is what you’ll see in most of my photos. That gives me the power to express to you how truly beautiful the world I see is. My love for creation is a testimony to God, its creator.

2. The second thing I can do is to take something “not so beautiful” and turn it into something that might still make you smile, or become inquisitive about or change your mind about. I’m good at that. From a yard filled with broken down boats, to a rusty old truck, to a dilapidated building. That gives me a certain “power”…knowing that I can change your mind about something you otherwise would not give a second glance.

Ha! I’m beginning to “unravel” now. I find myself being a bit manipulative. Is my photography manipulative? I don’t want it to be.

I want it to be inspiring.

And beautiful.

And thought provoking.

But at the same time I want it to be a representation of my real being (or of me being real.)

Being a (ever trying to become) Christian I truly and honestly can find joy in just about everything. So don’t get me wrong about that. But being completely honest with my thoughts and feelings? Not so much.

I need unraveling.

So, come back and visit if you’d like. And maybe at some point I will be someone you have not previously known! And my wish is that it will be someone you will want to get to know!

This morning I routinely made my morning coffee in my favorite green coffee cup and headed out to my favorite spot on my screen porch to begin my day. And then it hit me…SHAKE IT UP A BIT! If I’m trying to “unravel” the tightly bound ME, I’m going to have to make some changes. So…

I went back to my kitchen, pulled out a (fun) coffee cup (given to me by a friend with a great sense of humor…actually, it’s a whole set!) and re-made my morning coffee. A small change, but a step in the right direction for me. If I can make myself aware of the little ways that I can make some changes, then I can eventually make bigger and bigger changes!

So cheers to each of you! I’ve made a (small) change today!

(Today was a GREAT morning coffee day!!!)

(P.S. Do you know why most coffee cups are round? It’s because it’s very tricky drinking out of a cup with “straight” sides!!! Hahaha! Oh, life is so funny!!!)

Comments

[April]

That is awesome Rhonda! You are amazing!
Love the coffee cup tip! I truly try to use a different one each day now that I have some extra ones that are special too. My favorite mug though happens to be my white one that just says, "breathe" on it ;)!

[deea]

Hate straight edged cups! Unravelling with you!
~ d